BTS V opened up about his concerns during group activities in the past.
On Sep 11th, Suga‘s “SUCHWITA” content featuring V was released through BTS’ official YouTube channel.
Recalling “Fake Love” promotions in 2018, V mentioned, “It’s my first time telling this, but it was the toughest time in my life.” BTS confessed that they even thought about disbanding when sharing their thoughts after receiving the grand prize at the “2018 MAMA” in December 2018.
V confessed, “After some time had passed, I started to compare myself to others. ‘My pace is slower than the members and my thoughts are a bit different. Is that why I’m more burned out?’ I thought about this a lot. Whenever I look at our members when we perform, the members are so perfect and they enjoy the stage. ‘But why am I the only one like this?’ is what I thought at that time. So relatively, my burnout was severe.“
V continued, “At the time, our results and circumstances were ones we should’ve been so happy about. We were doing really well. We went to Billboard and the AMAs. But at the time, all of us were like, ‘So what if our results are good?’, ‘Why do we have to hurt ourselves this much in pursuit of results?’ Those were my thoughts as I was exhausted.”
In particular, V drew attention by saying, “I was so exhausted I thought so much about taking just one day off. I was so tired I wanted one day where I could do nothing. In 2018, after we shot the MV for ‘Fake Love’, I was so exhausted that I asked, ‘Since tomorrow we only have dance practice, would it be okay if we took a day off?’ But we were preparing for our comeback and it was an important dance practice, so we couldn’t rest. I was like ‘I guess we can’t rest’ and all this negativity piled up inside me. I didn’t think I could do anything in that state. I kept thinking of ways I could rest but I couldn’t think of anything, so I even thought I should get hurt.“
He shared, “Now I want to change that me of the past. We were at our limits. But if we look back at the concerns and worries we had back then, they’re gone now. Because of these experiences, I’ve become so healthy.”
V added, “One thing I can confidently say is that BTS worked harder than anyone for the past 10 years. We gave everything we got in our twenties. For example, if I were to go back to the past, I would want to go back to 2018 and tell myself, ‘Taehyung, it’s okay for you to feel this way.’ I believe that it’s thanks to those times that I’m the cool and healthy me of today. Back then, for real, it wasn’t just us, it was our staff too. We need to double our staff’s salary.”
Source: Daum
